apologies as this is not a tech post
I've always been careless, like really careless. I can walk into fires and solve the biggest issues that leaves others awestruck. Yet, tell me to deploy something that has been done 100 times, and I mess it up.
Missing a step, or just being careless in general. I wish I could go back and change things. Growing up every teacher would tell my parents the kid is very intelligent, but also very careless.
I know this is not technical, and today's carelessness did not even cause an outage. But I'm really low today. Why do I keep making these careless mistakes? How tough can it be to follow simple instructions.
My usually solution is to automate things that I find boring, but that's not something I get to do in my current role. No excuses though, I'm still struggling to come to terms with my latest blunder. I'm just disappointed in myself. Why can everyone else just follow patterns, do things step by step, and yet, I keep messing up regular tasks. Maybe I should look for roles that are less hands-on. I do love technology, which is what makes me sadder, as I hold high standards for myself and keep letting my self down.
Tl;dr are any of you careless? If yes, how do you cope up with it ?
EDIT: was not expecting such a response. Thank you all, for the tips, advise and most of all just being here. Sometimes when you feel low, its nice to know there's good people out there who're willing to lend a ear for venting out, and provide insightful points to follow up on. And, then some people say networking folks are rude, and impolite and have no heart. Thank you! :)