I just discovered this subreddit the other day, and I wanted to thank everyone here. I don't feel all alone anymore.
For what it's worth, I'm biologically female, but mentally, I know I'm male. This is where I get confused. I hate my chest, I hate my hips, I hate how feminine some parts of my body look... But I'm fine with the parts downstairs. Not 100% fine, but "hey, these will do", sort of thing. Ideally, I would like to have a fully-male body, but after reading up on the constructive surgeries... I'm not so pleased with what they have to offer, so I'd wait until medical technology advances.
The other thing is, I just want to live life as a man. This kind of loops back to the dysphoria, because I don't need to change what's downstairs to be able to do that, right? I mean, it's not like I'm going to whip them out in public to everyone. I just don't know if that sort of logic, or if those feelings, are normal.
I feel really driven to present as male, but my family doesn't know about this. Not sure how supportive my mother would be, but in the past, my father ridiculed me in public for having a mental illness, so I don't think he'd be supportive. I just don't really know what to do.
Another thought I've been having, do I really need to fully transition to live my life as a man? I want others to see me how I see myself. They see me as female, I see me as male.