For me, surrounded by hardcore TBMs on all sides in the Morridor, I feel incredibly lonely. There’s no one to share my journey or frustrations with, because TBMs don’t want to hear it. So I come on here to find community with people who understand what I’m going through, and with whom I can discuss my thoughts, feelings, and discoveries. The more I have to hold my tongue in real life, the more I want to come on here and say the things I want to say. I do research about church history because it validates my feelings and prepares me to have those discussions should they ever arise.
Since I’m surrounded by the church pretty much 24/7, I can’t avoid it and just move on. So I push back where I can, anonymously on the internet.