I am. To be honest, I went through a devastating break up which made me realize that I was the problem and that my anger and negativity had pushed away the person who I loved above all. I found God in my despair and my life was changed that day. I have tried from then to be a Kinder and more gentle humble person. I try not to let anger rule me like it used to. I'm happy to have learnt my lesson on why anger is such a bitter poison and I am better off for it.
This is literally what is happening to my relationship, and I'm afraid it's too late for me to try and make it better. Finally realizing that you alone are the result of the love of your life ceasing to love you is the worst feeling I've ever felt. I'd rather dislocate my knee again, as that was less painful.