I received three batches of ketamine in the last week. First was .25g, second was .5g, and third was 1g from a new vendor.
This was the first time I'd tried ket, though I've read about it a bit and had small doses for surgery. Mainly I stick to opiates, benzos, weed, and acid.
I was absolutely blown away. Within 2 minutes of insuflating what I eyeballed to be 50mg I knew what people love about it. After 10 minutes I took another 50 and lay down.
Main effects at this point: - lost sensation of physical touch - a sense of disassociation (how is my body moving) - lightweighted - slightly blurred vision and an extreme sense of wonder and joy. I was floating.
I resumed my usual daily task but felt so happy doing them. I felt purpose. I also felt very magnanimous.
Second time I took more at once (probably 250mg) and had what I think was a k-hole while taking a shower. 5 minutes to me was actually an hour in RL. When I got out my wife said I had been in there for 1.5 hours. I had to get out because the hot water ran out. I would have stayed for another hour if it hadn't. I spent most of the time sitting on the shower floor staring at the wall and moving my hands trying to figure out how they moved on their own. My chronic pain was nonexistent and I felt extreme euphoria and hope for my life. It was the #1 joyful experience of all types I've had in YEARS. I ruminated over that 1.5 hours for days and days. And I have been incredibly happy lately.
I have been diagnosed with and had depression for 2 years, on and off ssri/snris over and over. They help but not enough. I exercise and use benzos to help. This moment in the shower was the happiest I've felt since I was a child. Even after trying acid mutiple times (including microdosing )
This is getting long now. But the third dose was higher in quality and I used a digital scale to get an idea of the right doses for me. I measured out two 50mg lines and snorted them. Waited 5 minutes and took 100mg more. I went to my bed and laid down. I was spinning. The music encompassed everything. My body was non existent. I was comfortable in any physical position. I was floating on the ceiling and even saw closed eyes visuals that accompanied the music. I didn't think ket could be psychedelic like that. Anyway I ended up falling asleep with my headphones on full blast and when I woke up my wife told me she found me sleeping while music was blasting.
Those few minutes or hours as I lay in bed falling asleep were the closest thing to heaven I can imagine. I am waiting at least a month to do this again but I have no doubt it's had a possible effects on my mental state and my marriage.
I had never imagined such a state of concsiousness could exist in the list. I'm looking forward to doing acid and ket together in the future to see what else I can discover.
** I welcome any advice or earnings based on the details I've provided, as I want to remain a functional non-addictive and use drugs for the positive benefits without abusing them. **
Tldr; Ketamine is by far my favorite drug so far and I truly believe it is the next logical step in treatinf depression across the world.
Love you all. (no I'm not high right now, just reflective, haha)
Tips: test for purity, and measure your doses. Take long tolerance breaks and create a setting for your ketamine trip (not unlike acid)
My wife has pretty serious anxiety about going to church, and since she knows I'm out mentally it's easier for both of us to stay home or go do something else. Our new tradition is getting Taco Bell when church starts. For some reason it's even tastier on Sundays. :)
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Wow, what a horrible experience. I'm sure you all know the feeling of Kratom stuck in your throat and the sight of beautiful green powder flying in the air as you cough vigorously.
I always take my Kratom in capsules. It's been great. Today I couldn't find my go-to water bottle so I just got a drink from the sink to swallow the capsules.
I took a shower and starting looking for clothes to wear. As I bent down I coughed involuntary and a cloud of Kratom dust filled the air. I gagged like 5 times on the way to the sink to drink more water. Bad decision. It made me throw up. I didn't have anything flavorful to drink like orange juice or soda. Just water.
So now I'm sitting here with Kratom dust in my nose and throat, wishing I would have drunk two glasses of water like usual.
Anyway, no matter how you take.your Kratom, make sure you follow it with lots of liquid or you'll be sorry 15 minutes later. (or immediately)
I spent the last week out of the country. On the way home from the airport we had an amazing conversation about our future. She said she's glad I don't believe anymore and am unafraid of saying so. She thinks Provo is hurting me and wants to move to another state to start a new life. I'm so thankful for this community. I wouldn't have been here without you. Any recommendations? We are thinking Oregon or Colorado.
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I've felt so much better since I decided to be honest with myself and mentally leave the church. Perhaps one of the greatest joys that has come from this is being on the same plane as my nevermo friends. My best friend from my adolescence came through Provo a month ago and we just had the best conversations. I could finally relate to him and him to me. It's so nice to be authentic. Growing up there was always a certain distance between us because of my Mormon faith and now it's gone.
I hope other exmo's can reach out to old friends and rekindle friendships that might have been damaged by LDS beliefs.
It just makes me so sad to see all these missionaries scarfing down their last Cafe Rio meal, anxiously waiting to get on the plane. Most of them have no idea what they're in for. My mission tore me apart. I just hope they can make it through alright.
I thought it would be cool to collect patriarchal blessings from people in this sub to compare them, but I guessed it had already been done. And it has. (http://goedhartvoordieren.nl/?page=r/exmormon/comments/1r5n4u/patriarchal_blessing_revelator)
That was 3 years ago and there aren't many on that site. What do you guys think about trying this again?
Also I was thinking we could start a discussion about what other collaborative exmo projects we could start. Any ideas?
(Think data aggregation from public sources, scrapable sites, or collectible data from tens of thousands of members)
I make websites for a living so anything is possible!
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It's been 6 months since I started using Kratom. It is still every bit as effective as it was when I started. I'm amazed everyday at how much Kratom helps me.
I have narrowed down my strains. I take 1 dose (4g-6g) of red MD or Bali in the morning and then in the afternoon. Within 30 minutes my neck pain is gone and my mood boosts 100%. If it weren't for discovering this plant, I'd surely be in the grasps of opiates and my depression would take over.
Many family members have told me to stop. They've even said that Kratom is "the next heroin". The ignorance astonishes me. I hope that someday everyone will know the good side of Kratom.