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My illness was a long con beginning around age 10. Mom took me to countless doctors, over exaggerating symptoms they couldn’t see, until she finally found one who gave her what she wanted... a sickly child to become her new obsession and purpose.

After some initial prescriptions made me more hyperactive and irritable, shit got heavier until I was sedated 24/7. This lasted from late elementary school until I finally moved out at age 19. I spent those early years as an apathetic zombie who would succumb to mom’s every whim.

Just like she wanted.

Mom was an insecure, nervous woman. She was incapable of being alone and married young. Dad gave her financial security. She was barely able to leave the house due to her extreme anxiety, and she needed someone to take care of her. Living a boring, comfortable life was all she ever wanted.

Not that the cunt was ever remotely comfortable with any aspect of her life, except for their pile of money and sympathy from their hypocritical church-going acquaintances. She didn’t have friends. Guess we kind of have that in common. Learning social skills after being tranquilized for my entire adolescence has been a slow learning curve.

Dad was hardly any better. Emotionally and physically abusive... no wonder he chose mom. Dominant and controlling, she was his punching bag and I was the punching bag’s pet.

Sometimes I marvel at the fact that I’m living a normal, happy life after my abusive childhood. Sure, my job as a cashier isn’t exactly impressive, but it gave me the freedom I needed to move out of mom and dad’s house. My apartment is shit, but at least I don’t need to rely on them to pay the bills. There’s no money left over after necessities, but for now that’s okay. It’s not like I do anything besides work, anyway.

I don’t need to do much, as long as I have my husband Dan.

He is, hands down, the greatest thing to ever happen to me. The only person I’ve been truly close to. He knows everything about my story, about my history, and he completely accepts and cherishes me.

After being surrounded by nothing but abuse for my entire life, I certainly don’t take for granted the fact that I’m so genuinely in love. I feel it every morning when I wake up next to him, and I am the luckiest woman in the world to get to call him mine for life.

Dan is so smart, too. He’s only a few classes away from finishing his psychology degree, and he has plans to get back to school and finish it sometime soon. We met at work, but he doesn’t plan to stay at the grocery store forever. He wants to get his doctorate, and help people so they never have to go through the type of abuse I faced.

He’s going to change so many lives. I just know it.

Even though he’s not an official psychologist yet, he’s amazing at what he does.

He helped me work through so many repressed memories. Without him, I never would’ve fully understood that my mother drugging me and creating an imaginary illness was a form of abuse, and it wasn’t my fault. Now that the drug cocktail is lifted, it’s like my brain is constantly making new connections.

He helped me see that the suicide notes when I was 8 weren’t a big deal. Lots of 9 year olds cut themselves, and the stabbing incident in 5th grade was really blown out of proportion. It’s not like I hit any of mom’s vital organs or anything. They definitely freaked out when I killed the neighborhood cat, but Dan says that’s a sign of intelligence and that I should think about becoming a doctor or something. He really believes in me.

Dan says my actions were a call for help to escape my abusive parents. I couldn't remember most of the abuse before, but through Dan’s therapy techniques I’m recovering more memories all the time.

Now, I’m in a great place. Best place I’ve ever been in my life.

Because I’m finally going to be free from them. Tonight.

Dan thinks it’s the only way I’m going to be able to move on with my life. Mom, dad, and I aren’t capable of happiness when we all exist in the same world. Really, I’m doing them a favor.

I’m their sole heir, and Dan and I will become multi-millionaires. He helped me devise a plan to make things look like an accident, and since he’s so brilliant I completely trust him. We’re going to quit our jobs and travel the world before settling down and starting a family. He’ll be a psychologist and I’ll get to do whatever I want. He says his whole life will be devoted to making me happy.

We can’t wait long. I’ll be 20 soon, and I’ve delayed my chance at happiness long enough.

I can’t believe Dan and I have only known each other 3 months, it really seems like a lifetime. We eloped last night, and Dan insists that we need to finish securing my freedom tonight. If we wait too long, our marriage will be poisoned by their existence.

Time to go, Dan is getting anxious and says it needs to happen now. He’s right, of course. He’s always right. I trust him. After all, he loves me.

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Original Poster2 points · 22 hours ago

I asked my dermatologist about this and he actually said it’s safe for long term use! The percentage of steroid isn’t enough to thin skin! Thanks for the heads up tho :)

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Just for the record I also asked my dr and they said to be careful not to use it too much over long term! Drs have different opinions so just see what works for you, personally dr dans made my lips worse when I overused it

Malin+Goetz lip balm w/ aquaphor on top, exfoliate w/ elf lip exfoliator. Works great, even my dr comments on how good my lips look

I even got some of them while just thinking about starting accutane

4 points · 9 days ago

bachelor SO needs this!!! America is ready!

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YES! The BIP format makes way more sense than bachelor but I'm all for this

I use cetaphil moisturizer/sunscreen and it's okay, but what's helped me the most is switching the rest of my makeup to the IT Cosmetics bye bye redness corrector, then light layer of IT CC cream, and bareminerals powder foundation as spot concealer. My other products, mostly BB creams just wouldn't absorb well no matter what sunscreen I tried.

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Alien cats aren’t even the worst of it. Our entire species is at risk, and no one knows it except for me.

I just experienced the most astonishing and terrifying thing that has ever happened to me, and it might’ve happened to you too. You just don’t remember.

Since this is the most important event I’ll ever document, I’ll try my best to transcribe it as accurately as possible. I probably sound deranged, but please take this warning seriously.

Today began unremarkably. I woke up on the couch, thanks to falling asleep during a movie the night before. I spent those first few minutes lounging in an early morning haze, my body and mind making the gradual shift from dreamland to consciousness. Young morning light peeked through the blinds, and I listened to the gentle hum of crickets and chirping birds, the latter of which felt annoyingly lively for 7am.

Chester, my sweet orange tabby cat, kneaded the blanket with an expectant purr as I scratched his favorite spot behind his ear.

Suddenly, I heard a horrible, piercing sound, like screeching microphone feedback but deeper, more guttural. I jumped up in shock, looking around for the source. In my disorientation, it took several seconds to recognize that Chester was absolutely still - not just out of fear, but actually frozen in place - and... no, it couldn’t be... the incessant sound seemed to permeate from inside his body.

Before I could react to my beloved pet becoming a paralyzed siren, the sound stopped.

It was replaced with a voice.

You are being targeted for peaceful intergalactic contact for data collection purposes. Do not be alarmed, you will not be harmed. Contact will occur in 5... 4... 3... 2... 1.”

And then he appeared.

I’m not proud to admit this, but for the sake of full documentation... I pissed myself.

“What, surprised to see me?” He leered. “You’re lucky I didn’t visit in my typical form, now that’d be a shocker.”

I tried to steady myself, took a few deep breaths and closed my eyes, as though mentally willing this to not be happening. But when I opened them, there he was. A perfectly average looking man, tan skin with a bushy beard and brown eyes.

I forced my voice out of hiding. “What the hell is going on?! Who are you? And what did you do to my cat?”

To my surprise, he chuckled. “You uninformed species are all the same. Now calm down so I can do my job, then I’ll move along to the next one.”

“How the fuck am I supposed to calm down?! What’s going on? Is this some kind of joke?” The panic rose as I tried to stave off hyperventilation.

“Wonderful, I can tell you’ll be a great candidate.” His voice dripped with sarcasm as he rolled his eyes toward the ceiling.

“Seriously though, shut up so I can get my job done. I’m just here to collect a quick brain reaction scan and I’ll be on my way. Shouldn’t take much longer than 5 minutes once we begin. I’m going to put this” - he held up something that looked like a thin, silver disk, no larger than a quarter - “on the side of your head. Then, I’ll tell you some information about your planet and the rest of the universe. This device will measure your reactions to everything I say. After we’re done, I’ll wipe your memory and you’ll never even know I was here. We don’t have much time though” - he glanced at Chester - “the CatBots can only be shut off for 10 minutes before the offline signal reaches headquarters.”

I was speechless. Mouth agape, pants soiled, heart racing, standing as still as Chester, paralyzed by fear.

A little smile played on his face, and I could tell he found this amusing. “I can’t tell you more until you’re wearing this.”

I flinched as he placed it on my temple, bracing myself for the worst, but I felt nothing besides cold, hard metal.

“Now sit down. We’ve wasted enough time with you having a damn near panic attack and pissing yourself - and fixing your pants will add more time to the memory reversal process.” He said it as though I should’ve known better for inconveniencing him.

“First of all, your CatBot - I mean, cat, is a data collection device for the Universal Alliance. CatBots monitor and collect data on advancing intelligent lifeforms throughout the universe. It’s how we study you, and other creatures like you, and determine if and when to make contact. Your cats have been helping us study humans for 10,000 years.”

He paused, letting that sink in. “Are you following so far?”

I opened my mouth, trying to make something come out, anything, but I couldn’t. My mind was too overwhelmed by this seemingly impossible situation.

He smiled and continued.

“Anyway, this information is also used to run simulations. After a sufficient developmental waiting period, the contact simulations begin. Figuring out which species could join The Alliance peacefully, maintain balance and harmony within the universe, that sort of thing. Of course, it also determines which species would be catastrophic to universal peace.

“So... does that mean you’re here because it’s time to make contact with us? Or... oh God, is this one of the contact simulations?”

He laughed out loud this time. “No, no. The Universal Alliance wouldn’t waste time on a simulation contacting someone like you, they strictly initiate contact with world leaders. I’m here for the opposite reason, actually. You humans have reached the limit of isolation, but simulations show that contact would be utterly disastrous, and shockingly so. Worse than any in recent memory, in fact. Because of that, your species has officially been declared uncontactable.”

I tried to swallow the lump in my throat. “If we aren’t supposed to be contacted... why are you here? And wait... what do you mean, limit of isolation? What happens after we reach the limit?” My mind felt sluggish, and I was having trouble processing everything he said. None of this information made sense, and my brain wanted nothing more than to reject every bit of it.

“Well, it goes beyond just a lack of contact. Unfortunately for you, uncontactable species aren’t permitted to survive past a certain point... that’s what we mean by the limit of isolation. The limit comes fairly quickly once a species develops instant planet-wide communication technology and space travel. No matter how laughingly rudimentary either technology may be. If a species hasn’t evolved enough to be classified as contactable by then, well... they’re considered a waste of resources and a potential danger in the future.”

I felt the blood drain from my face.

“Oh, it’ll be painless, don’t worry. People won’t even know what’s happening, and then it’s over. But that brings me to my next point.” He leaned in closer, and I could tell he was at his favorite part of the speech. Before speaking he glanced at Chester, as though ensuring he were still frozen in time.

“A small group of us have a little side project. A... collection, you could call it. A collection of inadequately evolved intelligent beings. One male and one female of each type, chosen based on how their minds handle... well, difficult situations. What we're doing is admirable, really. Noble. Preserving inferior intelligence all over the universe.”

My mind was stuck on his words "not permitted to survive," but I forced through the shock and tried to channel whatever ounce of focus I had left in me.

“A... collection? What will you do with those people? Will they stay on earth by themselves?” Something about the look in his eyes made me wary about the prospect of being part of his collection.

“Oh no, they can’t remain on Earth. This planet will become a transportation portal, at least until some other Earthling species evolves enough. Then the policy is to leave them alone, see how they turn out. You’d be surprised how quickly intelligence advances when the dominant ones disappear. Plus, it’s a useful spot out here - there isn’t much else around this side of the universe, and everyone always loved the sightseeing, hated the locals. As for what we do with them, well....”

He gave me a sinister smile that made the hair on the back of my neck stand up. For the first time, I saw a flash of evil in his eyes.

“I guess only the chosen ones will figure that out.”

My blood ran cold at the sight of his piercing eyes. But then they became distracted, and when he spoke again, I knew it wasn’t to me.

“You’re coming through, repeat....” The voice he heard was silent to my ears, but this time, the flash in his eyes was of anger.

“Have they detected us?” He was looking off in the distance, distracted, thinking. “How much time do we have?” After a brief pause, “I haven’t started the memory reversal yet, but even if we can’t return to complete the job it won’t matter, they never believe each other anyway. Plus, they’ll be gone soon, I doubt headquarters is still monitoring them that closely. CatBot set for reanimating in 1 minute. Initiate transport.”

As suddenly as he came, he was gone.

I sat in shock, heart thumping, mind racing. Quick, shallow breaths. Chester came back to life before I did, acting as though nothing had ever happened. Even now, I want to tell myself it was all a dream, a hallucination, some moment of insanity.

But that’s a lie. My biggest regret is asking him when. When will every human life on this planet cease to exist? Maybe it's best to not know. But I do know it’s coming. Soon.

And there isn’t a damn thing we can do about it.

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I'm all for legalizing drugs and sex work, make both industries safer with regulations and make that tax $

I've been struggling with this too. After hearing advice from other people here, I'd suggest to just write and think less about the rules, especially while you're still developing the idea. If you try too hard to make it fit a certain criteria it feels limited, while the whole point should be using writing as an open, creative outlet.

Plus, you never know where the story could end up... as you write and the plot becomes clearer, the idea will probably become easier to adapt to the nosleep format. My first story idea came to me after brainstorming for another concept with similar themes that wouldn't work on nosleep. Only way to know is to just write, solidify your idea, and see what happens!

I relate to your third point with some of my own stories. I get comments comparing what I write to media I've never seen. A lot of what I write is inspired by Lovecraft, Borges, Kafka, and other widely read writers though, so I'm not surprised other works exist that bare some similarity to mine.

And I also get comments and messages asking me for updates - when I intend my ending to be final. My bleak, Lovecraftian cosmic-view is not coming across if readers think there will be updates where all is well in the end.

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Also agree with the 3rd point. All the comparisons to my stories were things I'd either never seen/read, or I had read them so long ago I couldn't tell you a single detail about them. Also, it felt weird to read a summary of a comparison and feel like it sounded completely different from what I wanted to convey.

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I only started last month and just have 2 stories. For both of them, I had an idea of where they were going beyond the original. But I forced myself to simplify it just to get something out. Because of that, they feel incomplete.

It's at the point where I feel weird re-reading them and think I should've done better, spent more time on them, told the story more completely, etc... yeah I'm pretty hard on myself.

What are your thoughts on adding an update to a story that wasn't originally written as a series? I have a vague idea of where to go but nothing written, and I feel like the best way to do a part 2 or series is to have the entire story finished before posting anything. I'm getting way too concerned with ruining the original story if people don't like the follow up, which many probably won't, even though I feel confident in my mind that it's where the story is meant to go.

For the main one I'm thinking of adding an update to, I could see myself maybe doing a part 2, or possibly 3, with either one offering a decent enough conclusion to stop the story. Is that too disorganized of a way to approach it? Do you always decide if you'll do an update before you post your stories?

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2 points · 1 month ago · edited 1 month ago

It's at the point where I feel weird re-reading them and think I should've done better, spent more time on them, told the story more completely, etc... yeah I'm pretty hard on myself.

First, that's crazy to me because I have read your stories and thought they were awesome. But that feeling is completely normal. I hate everything I write after re-reading it. Even this comment.

What are your thoughts on adding an update to a story that wasn't originally written as a series?

I think you should trust yourself. /u/J_M_Novels says this every time someone asks a similar question, and he's right. Do what you feel comfortable with and nothing else.

EDIT: told ya

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Original Poster2 points · 1 month ago

Thank you, that means a lot because I tend to let a lack of confidence get in the way of completing (or even just starting) things. I have a lot to learn about the writing process in general but I guess everyone has to start somewhere, and all the advice here really helps!

I hate everything I write after re-reading it. Even this comment.

hahah same, I write such cringy comments. But don't hate this comment of yours, it helps :)

If your story doesn't fit the rules, you may want to check the r/nosleep sidebar for related/similar subreddits. There's probably a perfect place for it somewhere. (But keep posting on r/nosleep too 😀)

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Original Poster2 points · 1 month ago

Such a good point, thanks!! I didn't even think about that, a lot of story ideas I abandoned bc they weren't well suited for r/nosleep would probably work on r/cryosleep

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You ever end up killing your parents with Dan?

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Original Poster3 points · 1 month ago

This is Dan's account, you must have me confused with someone else

No in r/nosleep your sais you were gonna kill your parents who pumped you up with drugs with you psychologist boyfriend Dan.

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Original Poster5 points · 1 month ago

Forget about that, that bitch was crazy. I can't believe she posted that shit online

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I only wrote one story, but the overall idea was inspired by two of my family members. Loosely of course... ;)

2 points · 1 month ago

Saw some reports as well that they were lightly sedated by the doctors with them in the cave before leaving with the divers.

But yes, your point completely stands. More strength and willpower than many of us have.

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Not to nitpick, but pretty sure a report said one person "thought" the boys "would have been" sedated. Def makes sense to sedate them, but this story is full of unconfirmed rumors and I wish more ppl checked/listed sources

If you sit by a window personally I'd put on sunscreen. Otherwise no

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I don't think the sun is that bad tbh, I'm outside a ton, still go to the pool/hiking/whatever. Just always wear sunscreen, reapply if you're out awhile, and get a hat if you're outside like all day

Original Poster1 point · 1 month ago

He genuinely doesn’t seem to have a clue about it at all. I told him I think I need to start using it (after 11 years of battling acne and my previous GP refusing to prescribe it) and he just said “okay”, wrote the script and said not to fill it until my blood results come in next week.

Sad thing is- I just moved to a small city in Northern BC, Canada and there is not a single derm in the city covered under our health care, and getting a GP is damn hard since there aren’t many. Pretty much this guy is my only option for anything medical related.

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Ahh okay, well in that case at lease he's giving you the rx! So I'd say just take the iso, but make sure you can get enough until you clear up. At 40mg might take 6-7ish months? Depending on how your skin responds of course

Original Poster1 point · 1 month ago

Sort of off topic but I’m currently using Retin-A on my face right now (every second day), when should I stop using it since I know I’m going on Iso within the next 1-2 weeks?)

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Hmm idk exactly, I never used retin-a. My dr sort of implied to stop other stuff a month before accutane but my skin got way worse in that month so I probably didn't need to do it so dramatically. I think she meant just don't take it at the same time and I went overboard lol.

Is your skin extra sensitive and dry from the retin-a? If so that's a good reason to stop sooner

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Holy shit I was just noticing this yesterday. I bought one of those antennas to pick up local channels after not having any cable for years and the ads were insane.

Here's a link to some if anyone's interested.

Common themes are attacking people for reasonable sounding things (like come on being moderate should be a pro, not a con), being anti sanctuary cities, and religion. So much religion. The Diane Black ad at the bottom doesn't mention a single policy (I double checked) and is legit only about her religion. I love Nashville and grew up here but fuck the fucking bible belt

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Register to vote here

Mailing address for registration forms

Election calendar

August 3rd is a county general and federal/state primary election.

Online registration is available, if it doesn't work (like it didn't for me) there's a printable form to mail to the county election commission. Just has to be postmarked by July 3rd to meet the deadline.

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This isn't the deadline to vote in November, right? In the process of moving to Nashville and don't have an address yet.

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Original Poster2 points · 1 month ago

Registration deadline is 30 days before an election, so you have time for the Nov general :) welcome to Nashville!

Im registered!!!! Cant wait to VOTE REPUBLICAN across the ticket!!!!

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Original Poster3 points · 1 month ago

As I'm sure many of our fellow Tennesseans will.

1.0k points · 1 month ago

Things that shouldn't be For Profit is healthcare and education.

For Profit creates greed that creates dishonest and immoral practices. When it comes to peoples lives and health there needs to be honor and i don't see that.

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Agreed.

I’d like to point out that “education” should extend to early childhood as well. I’ve worked in daycares/preschools and even the nice ones are incredibly shitty behind closed doors. What children, including babies, are exposed to and how they’re treated matters, and our system is broken.

So why not just get rid of the rest and only date these 4 for a while. And no more rose ceremonies, just show break ups whenever they happen naturally during their interactions.

I'd rather watch that tbh. Less cheesy production, just seeing natural, normal relationships unfold separately but still having to narrow down to one within a certain time frame

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I don't see anything online that supports the expression as being racist,

Really? Not anything? This is the first result after googling "cotton pickin mind history."

It can come as as little surprise that the term 'cotton-picking' originated in the southern states of the USA, where it is usually pronounced cotton-pickin'. It began life in the late 1700s and differs from the 19th century Dixie term, 'cottonpicker', in that the latter was derogatory and racist, whereas 'cotton-picking' referred directly to the difficulty and harshness of gathering the crop. This didn't extend to the specific expression 'keep your cotton-picking hands off of me'. This no doubt alludes to the horny, calloused (and usually black) hands that picked cotton.

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That's what I found too but interpreted it differently. I thought it sounds like 'cotton-picking' is actually meant to be innocuous, with the only exception being the "hands off me" phrase. So unless using that particular phrase, it wasn't supposed to have racial connotations - at least, based on what you just posted.

Not saying we should all go around saying it, if for any reason other than it sounds fucking stupid. But this SJW/PC thing is starting to get a little out of hand when we ignore the nuances in language and intent.

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But this SJW/PC thing is starting to get a little out of hand when we ignore the nuances in language and intent.

Black folks have a legitimate interest in not wanting their minds to be called "cotton-picking." It is obvious. It is not over-the-top SJW/PC, there is a legitimate interest there.

This was a statement made directly to a black person whom was offended. If they are offended, the one who said the phrase is the one who is not tuned in to the nuances on why "your cotton-picking mind" might be offensive to the black person they are talking to.

Edit: Grammar

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Yeah I can understand black people not being ok with that phrase, especially if they're from an area where no one says it. To hear that for the first time would be pretty damn shocking. Joel Payne is from NJ and I doubt that's a common phrase up there, could've even been the first time he heard it.

I hesitate to generalize that all black people would find it offensive, especially if they grew up in an area where it was used innocently, but I'd be interested in hearing more opinions on that.

I agree in hearing people out when they're offended, but honestly in our current world it's hard not to offend. I had a co-worker who was extremely offended by the word "picnic" and doing picnics semi-regularly was part of our job. I'd avoid saying it around her but it was hard and I'd feel terrible and uncomfortable whenever I'd accidentally slip. Also know someone who gets offended if they're referred to by any pronouns other than "they" or "them". It makes me constantly have to overthink what I say and convos with/about them are honestly a lot harder.

Not trying to delegitimatize covert racism because it's a tragedy and shame that it's so bad in our country. I make an effort to learn as much as I can about my nonwhite friends' experiences with racism so I can act as an advocate whenever people deny that racism still exists so strongly. Just saying that in this one instance, I think people are ignoring the nuances and intent of this particular phrase.

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I have read reviews on amazon stating you cant use it for more than a year or more than twice a day. But the labeling on the chap stick doesnt say anything like that

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I have one still in the original box. Box says to use no more than 3 or 4 times a day, and also "if symptoms persist for more than 7 days or clear up and occur again within a few days, discontinue use and consult and physician"

Personally I think my lips get way drier using this stuff. I have to reapply so much more than my normal lip balm. I did talk to a dr about it (a guy I was dating not my actual dr) and he said it'll make my lips thinner and not to use it too much. He actually made kind of a big deal about it lol he was worried it'd fuck up my lips

Awww shit...i have been using it for the past three month. Maybe like 3 or 4 times a day...now your comment just scares the crap out of me lol...wow.

I actually bought a 6 pack of this stuff from amazon for 30 bucks. Wow, now i wonder what the heck i can use now? 🤔

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Aw I wouldn’t worry too much, that’s just one opinion (plus he was only a resident not a real dr haha), at least you aren’t doing more than 4 times a day. I bought a 3 pack and was so annoyed, I barely use it! Do you think it makes your lips thinner or drier?

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